With the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show coming up soon, I decided to do a post on confidence. I get a lot of questions as to how & where I get my ego & my over-confidence. Truthfully, I don't know where to start because this is how I was raised my whole entire life by a mother who's equally egotistical & overly confident, & she taught me this powerful energy in many different ways & how to use it to weaponize myself.
My mom raised me to believe that for as long as anyone hates me, at least I'm smarter & more successful than them, & nothing negative that anyone ever says to & about me is valid because you can't talk shit about someone that you're not even doing better than, & in today's day, age, & economy, doing better than someone means that you're educated with a degree in something relevant, have a good-paying job, & are financially stable. That's just to start off. Everything else that you have & do in your life on top of that from cool hobbies to other achievements to being able to afford to do & buy things that not everyone can is extra, & if you have ALL of that, then you have everything. I think that because I was able to achieve all of this, it also contributed to my ego & over-confidence. The fear of being average & like everyone else always scared me because not everyone turns out successful or fortunate enough to have their life made & turn out exactly the way that they planned it. There's truly nothing more sure, "forever", reliable, bold, intimidating, powerful, assertive, & authoritative than being educated & successful.
Aside from being successful, my mom raised me to endure the highest level of negativity, both at home & in the outside world. Being bullied in grade school never phased me, & I want to thank my mom for helping me with that. I don't take things that people say seriously, & I can take damage because I can cause damage, way better than anyone & everyone. Situations always favor me as well because of me being more successful than those who talked about me in grade school, & even now, so people can't find anything to insult me with because I don't put myself in situations where people have room to talk.
I was fortunate enough to have grown up on ego & confidence, but you can also build it up in many other ways. Here are some other ways I've built mine & some advice on how to build yours, too:
I have many other ways on how I gained my ego & confidence, but some things just have to stay as secrets. It's my Coca-Cola recipe. <3 If you don't figure it out on your own, then you never will; however, this should be enough to help you out in some way. Do keep in mind that when you do build your ego & your confidence, it's a drug, & let me just reassure you that no matter what anyone says, it's okay to be overly conceited, egotistical, confident, etc. I'd rather be that than overly insecure with extremely low self-esteem. I'll die passing that advice on if it's the last thing that I do. With my level of confidence, no one can touch me.
Another thought before the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show: Love & admire yourself before wishing to be someone else. Don't take your jealousy & insecurity out on other people, including on me!
Thanks to everyone who's told me that my ego & my confidence inspires them.
I started keeping a dream log to record all of my dreams, which are usually dark, weird, & / or bad. It's me. Go figure. Some of them are pretty interesting though. I'm not sure what they mean sometimes, but if I ever want to go back to them, I can just refer back to this post. I'll be adding to this post often.
Happy Valentine's Day! I'm sure that you & yours are enjoying today in some romantic way together. This year, I'm spending it with the same guy since the summer of 2014, & I wouldn't wanna be with anyone else. I'm sure you're all wondering what we did this year, but this post is for all of the single girls who are probably hating today because they're all alone.
Falling in love with myself & giving myself power & confidence is the best gift that I’ve ever given myself because it made my life so much easier, from being comfortable with myself, to not letting others’ opinions & / or words bother me because my over-the-top ego & high self-esteem won’t allow me to because I’ll always think that I’m better, to not having to be like those embarrassing, insecure psycho girlfriends worrying about where my man is, what he’s doing, & who he’s with every second of every day, etc. My point is, being confident can help you in almost every situation possible, & this Valentine’s Day, you don’t need a lover. Love yourself.
People always ask me where I get my confidence, & I’ve had a variety of inspirations, but my favorite one is a fictional character named Blair Waldorf from a TV show called, "Gossip Girl". It’s silly, but it’s completely true. I grew up watching that TV show for six years, & Blair has never failed me, & I’ve molded myself to be exactly like her through all the years of my adolescent youth. I’m convinced that anyone that can’t be exactly like Blair Waldorf can’t survive. She’s beautiful, smart, manipulative, confident, fashionable, & she’s a mean bitch. In one episode, she ran into her best friend’s boyfriend’s social-climbing little sister, Jenny Humphrey, in the bathroom who was having guy trouble, & Blair said, “Anne Boleyn fell in love, & she got her head chopped off. As a result, her daughter, Elizabeth, vowed to never marry a man. Instead, she fell in love with power, & she married her country.” So if you're not sharing Valentine's Day with a lover this year, then it’s okay. Don’t keep your mind set on boys. Keep your mind focused on school, money, power, goals, & working on a better you. Don’t let a broke boy break your heart. Just get naked, set a rose bath, light some candles, shop online, wear some lace from For Love & Lemons, eat dessert, & play some Amy Winehouse.
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